Book smell.

I don't know about you, but I just love the smell of an old book. There's something weathered and beautiful about them, like looking at yourself in an ancient distressed mirror.

Well, I'm currently sitting at my local library, with 22 minutes left of Internet use. It's fantastic! They even have a little cafe. Actually, it's a little impersonal, people are sitting right next to you, so they read everything you're writing and I seriously need to wash my hands after using this keyboard.

The reason I'm no longer able to use my laptop is because I've moved out with a friend, to this gorgeous apartment. I'll try and take some photos, just to show you how lucky I am!

We overlook the bay, as in the beach is literally a stones throw away.

Life has become a tad complex at the moment, I'm working two jobs, my main one is a little unstable, but that's apart of the excitement of living week to week. Do you have Target over in North America? Well, that where I'm currently employed, and it's pretty average, but it now officially pays the bills, and I'm getting better at budgeting, is that how you spell it? Budgeting? Gah, curse not having spell check! I miss my mac. I've probably made an absolute fool of myself with all my grammatical errors.

Well, I've now got only 15 minutes left and I have just a few more things to do whilst on this computer.

E

xx

Is it just me, or has Jamie T gone commercial? 

All my favourite bands are falling into their trap! Well, I still have Ash Grunwald and Xavier Rudd, hopefully they'll stay true. 

xX

Candles.

My light has blown, so, naturally I have employed a candle as my new source of light. It's really not very effective. But I feel oh so romantic sitting here alone in my bedroom, posting a blog and wearing an old jumper and socks. Now everyone must try my lovely atmospheric approach to lighting issues. 

Yesterday I went and saw a movie with my neighbour over the road. 

I was amazed at the story behind the film, but I was still utterly freaked out by it. For a PG movie, it really sends uncomfortable shivers up your spine. 

 Oh, in case you haven't guessed it yet, it's a new little fill in piece of Tim Burton's genius! 

Coraline, is a haunting tale of a young girls boring, tedious and unloving life with her hypocritical cold parents. She basically stumbles across a  tiny door that has been hidden behind the wall paper... there lies a world of a loving family and bright colourful land where her existence is a little more appreciated. 

 But then she starts to see the fine cracks. I personally wouldn't even dream of taking my kids to see that movie, I even got nightmares from it. But it was still beautifully done and it's refreshing from all that other disney crap thats on at the moment. 

So I give it 3.5 red wine corks, stars are too boring. 

xX

Spacer information please...

 

I'm trying to make this spacer (stretcher) in my right ear work. I just really need to go up a size.

The one I'm wearing now keeps getting tangled in my hair and catches on my clothes because its a spiral. 

So, I'll go hunting for a better one. 

Does anyone else like the Decemberists? 

I'm hungry, lunch time.

xx

 

P.s: Dont you just love the mirror effect! 

Lithium

"I'm so happy coz today I found my friends, their in my head." 

No, not really, but they were for Kurt.

 So I'm now waitressing, hanging out with my ex and listening to the greatest songs of all time.

Does anyone else love Bon Iver? 

Now, I'm thinking about changing my hair, and as you guys have some idea of who I am, you have the right to choose a hair style for me. You're welcome to choose anything, and I would love to hear what you have to say. 

 I'm going to bed now. 

Night! 

Lalala.

Ahhh, yes, the day has finally come. I can now walk around naked and feel no shame. 

Because I have the HOUSE TO MYSELF!! YAY YAY YAY YYAYAYAYYAYAYSYASFGAHEIVBNJ!!!

 Ok, I'm over it. 

Hey guess what!? My rabbits had babies. SO CUTE! 

Also, my friend is going into labour right NOW! How exciting! 

Thank you.

I'm sorry i've been truly pathetic with Blogging. 

I also really need to get into some of your blogs too, I'm really lazy at the moment. 

But I just wanted to say thank you to those who have read my dribble and still seemed to find some entertainment in it.

I'm sick at home (probably got the stupid Swine) and so now I hav to make Ryan a birthday present, I'm too poor to actually go and buy something.

So here is my plan for his birthday (22nd June). 

I'll make him a cake & do an artwork similar to Kate McLeod's work (god I love her stuff).

I'll also try to sew some little flags on a piece of string to decorate his house with, and write him a card.

Did I mention that I cannot sew to save my life? 

Wish me luck, i'll let you know if I've failed. 

Oh, also, for the past week I've been on placement at a Pathology Clinic, happily stabbing INR patients daily. God I love this work.

Ok, I might be a little Sadistic, but I do it with love.

Go and see Sunshine Cleaning. It's so cute.

.e

I love hippies.

I had the most wonderful, crazy, refreshing and eye opening experience last night.

 I was wonderful and refreshing because I have been so 'grown up' and 'mature' lately, that I actually forgot that I'm 18, and really, I shouldn't be trying to seem more stable so Ryan will stay with me. He should really be getting back to his roots and get out their, put himself in an uncomfortable situation to actually learn something from it. 

 Well, that's what I decided to do last night...

My friend Elliot (whom I haven't seen in quite some time due to his worldly adventures) has decided to go backpacking/hitch hiking across Australia. 

But since he's been back from Pakistan or where ever he was last, his current address since then is... house squatting in an abandoned building. This building used to be an old Jail/police station. But some asian corporate company has bought it since then, and they plan to knock it down some time next year to rebuild an apartment block.

So anyway, we went there as a farewell to Elliot and to paint the walls. 

 People were being held up-side-down so they'll be able to walk on the roof with paint on their feet. 

 So, I knew absolutely no one there, I took one friend with me, Sarah. She's the only person that's really open to anything, she doesn't care what people think of her. All she wants to do is enjoy life whilst she still has it.

 So, after getting to know some of the others, we all headed into the old Jail cell to sit down play the guitar and chat, one girl said she found an old Court Room, so we all decided to pack up and head to this place. 

It was massive! Some of us split up to go exploring, we went to the back rooms to look around. All of a sudden someone came running in saying, "Get out! Security guards are outside, there calling the cops! Run!"

We all ditched in different hallways, but there were no back doors, everyone managed to find a back window to jump out of, but I was in another room so I jumped out the window there, but managed to graze my entire back in the process. 

We were hiding out side for ages, waiting to hear what happened. 

 I found one of the guys, and he said that they're gone.

So we all went back to the original police station. But they hadn't left, they found the building we were in.

So we all hid in different areas or the premises, seeing torch lights through the windows and radios going off about different locations.  

Sarah and I had to get out of there! I don't know what they could have charged us with, but I couldn't risk it. I needed to get into nursing with a clean record. 

We found 3 other people near where we lived, so we found a way out, got into their Kombi van. Sarah and I were in the mattress in the back, whilst the others drove. 

As we were on the main road, a fuzz copter started to follow us, to be honest I have absolutely no idea why, but we had to lose them, so we went under a bridge, and turned around to find another way back.

We arrived at one of the guys houses, changed cars, so we wouldn't be picked up again, and went home safely. 

I have really missed being my age. 

Please, don't feel you need to read this, I just needed to vent.

I guess I haven't really written here for a while because I feel that what I say is boring. I really have nothing exciting to discuss. 

 But I think I need to start up again, because I'm starting to feel down again. I started this blog when I was doing my final year/few months of high school, and I was under a lot of pressure. 

So anyway, this is my self advised therapy. 

The reason I think I'm not myself, is because I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. I have no money/job anymore, so I can't travel or save for a car. 

I have no other companions other than Ryan at the moment, No friends to really share anything with. 

Now I feel really self centred for taking your time. This was a redundant post. I just needed to vent, sorry to make you feel like I now do. 

.e

OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!!! Thank you KIRS!

I just had the most amazing Day EVER! I finally received Kirs Gift! I'm over the moon about it! I'm wearing his necklace right now, I'm going to frame his hand painted shell and I'm going to hang the big circle thingy. 

 I also got my licence, which I thought would never happen. I went in at 9 am to go for a last lesson before the test, which I thought was at 11 am.

When I rocked up, they were like "Oh, hey man your test was like, at 9 am this morning."

I nearly cried! Because the next time I could try again was in July.

But then they looked through all the records and said, "Oh hey, yeah we can kind of like fit you in at 1.30 this afternoon. 

I was so relieved. But then they said I could do the test in my car. It didn't have a hand break, it only had a foot break. The only other car I could have possibly used was my Dads, but everything was on the opposite side, and I have never driven before. 

So naturally I started to cry. I had no idea what to do.

Mum had to go see a friend, and I came along too. We then discovered that she had a car that was suitable for the job.

A little bigger, but it did the job... I'm a free man now. Can drive where ever I feel the need to.

There you go, my amazing triumph of a day.

 

How about you? What did you get up to?

.e

I ♥ elinkan

This little Swedish girl is the most wonderful, beautiful, delicate, adorable and tasteful person I have ever stumbled across. 

So, I felt I should take it upon myself to feast your eyes on the delights of Elinkan I think that's her name. 

.e

Baggers My Snake Has A Cold.

It's really quite cute, when he breathes his nose whistles. 

He's so affectionate, and playful. Totally unaware of the fact that most people are totally freaked by him. 

I wish I had a River to skate away on.

I miss her.

Every time I open my mouth, they don't know what I'm thinking.

Only she does.

I miss someone knowing me. 

I miss Kelly.

I want to skate away on my frozen river.

To see something new.

Nothing changes. 

Even when the sun is out. 

It's just grey. 

Ryan will still be blue.

What colour does that make me? 

Its started!

Winter is starting to show its cold little head, even though it's still autumn. 

 Mt Bulla is now open, first time in 30 years it's being open this early, so Ryan and I are off to the Post American winter sales. Perfect timing for us! 

Cheap clothes, boards skis!

In other news... my dreads are now gone :(

And I'm also feeling a lot better. 

Does anyone else here watch Skins? 

I'm obsessed with it. If you have never really given it any thought, seriously! Watch it! 

Xx

 

The joys of meeting Ben Harper & the Relentless 7.

I went to the Byron Bay Blues and Roots Festival the other week, and saw acts such as Ben Harper, Xavier Rudd & Ash Grumwald. 

 I decided to get into the 'festive' mood and I stupidly paid $50 for 4 dread locks. 4! Why?!

 Now my hair is a mattered mess & constantly greasy because of the bee's wax they put in, no matter what I do,  my hair will go back to the exact same state as it was the day before I washed it. Gah!

In other news, Ben Harper & his band caught my plane back to Melbourne to attend some comedy talk show we have here. 

As he walked past me I stuttered, "Thanks for an amazing night, last night."

Which may sound weird to people who have no idea who he is, but I saw him play a very enthusiastic set that evening. Then he turned to me in all his splendor and said, "No, thank you so much for being apart of it!"

And then I melted in my seat.

His band was sitting up just ahead of me & one of them kept looking back at me, so we had fun eye flirting throughout the trip.

Xx

Sick & tired.

Not a great day, can't do anything because I'm not well, I'm not sure if it's mono again but I feel achy and horrid all over. 

 I wish I had Skins, season 3 to distract me. 

xx

MEOW...

I became a cat today, and blogger started hitting on me after I updated my profile photo.

 

Also, yesterday I went to the Dentist... which I absolutely HATE! 

The feeling & the sound of the drill just freaks me out. 

Anyway, they couldn't seem to numb me enough so I did feel pain.

The smile I had last night though was fabulously priceless! One half of my face lit up in a wonderful smile, whilst the other half was a nasty grimace. Which made the whole expression look like that two faced guy from Batman.

 So this morning I woke up to having the most awful pain in me left cheek,

because my dentist must have put the needle in my muscle. 

xx

Gumby-head Girl.

Well, I'm really either not doing much, or I'm doing too much that it's become monotonous and I find it boring. 

Either way, I'll tell you what I'm actually doing.

I'm Currently; 

- Finishing Level 1 in Sign Language. 

- Halfway through my Certificate III in Pathology. 

- Teaching kids to swim (getting my volunteer hours up to start getting paid for it). 

- Painting, but not offten. 

- Seeing Ryan as much as I can.

- Looking for new music. 

- Going to the Byron Bay Blues and Roots music Festival. 

- Wishing I can move out and live with Ryan soon.

- Listening to Muse. 

- Want to get my stupid bloody licence! GAR! 

- Saving up for a car & a holiday to Greece/ Germany because they are basically next door neighbours.

Thats all folks.

My Passport expired :(

Love you all and missing you because I'm lazy, sorry. 

E.

Mothers in law...

Ryans mother and I had ... er, well I guess you could call it a clash the other day.

Long story short, we are both different (VERY DIFFERENT) people. She's very argumentative and opinionated. Were as, when I get angry or hurt, I remove myself from the undesired stimulus and sit somewhere quietly most of the time I tend to read. 

I guess I have been rather... well sensitive for the past few weeks (no thanks to the bloody implanon that's cozily implanted in my arm).

 But what she did had nothing to do with me being over sensitive (although she claims that I was being that way). 

Ryan and I were sitting on the couch, watching a movie. I'm in my PJ's, were as Ryan was just in jeans and leaning over. He has a little gut, but it's just polite to not make a big thing about it.

Well, Jenni walks in from her morning walk. Sees Ryan and grabs her Phone to take a picture of him with it. She laughs and says to Ryan, "Hahahaha, this picture is proof as to why you should lose weight."

Ryan and I didn't say anything, we ignored it.

Then she walks over to open a packet of M'n'Ms and says "Ryan, is there something wrong with you? You're not diving for the chocolate."

By then I felt she was just being plain nasty, so as I went to go and have a shower I said to her "Jenni, what you said to Ryan was just plain cruel, you can't just say that." 

Ooh, she didn't like that one bit. "How dare you.. blah blah blah, I can't even be myself in my own house since you came along.. blah blah blah... before you came along I used to talk to Ryan all the time about stuff like that" (Jesus, no wonder to poor boy has no self-esteem and depression.)

Oh well, I'm no longer heading that way anymore. 

 Stay out of the old witches territory. 

Ahh, off my chest.

Geez, you guys a coping it with my anger and ventilation at the moment. 

Thanks for bothering to read this. I'm off to talk with my hands now. 

E

Missing in Ireland...

My life without Kelly, is like a life without buildings (no not the band...if you've ever heard of it).

For the next year, my favorite shoulder to cry on has packed her bag and has become a backpacker.
She's just finished skiing in France, and visiting her family in England. Her next stop is Dublin.
Where she will be crashing for the next 3 months with her other close friend Tilly.

So, this little post is just letting you know that a chunk of me will be missing for the next 11 months.
(Cum knuckle, if your reading this... Meet and play with as many Irish guys as you can. god I would be if I was single. Hell fall in love and get married! Just let me know so I can fly over to hold your hand.)

Now I'm going to listen to The Kings of Leon before they discovered the English language.

E

Stupid, stupid girl!

Have I ever told you what an idiot I can be.

Well, here you go "I'M A SELF TITLED IDIOT!" 

 This statement is only highlighted by the stunt I pulled last weekend...

I went out clubbing to this Indie bar in Melbourne, it's called 'Pogo'.

My friend was leaving for Europe, so we decided to hit the town one last night.

 Because we were new to this scene, we were friendly, asking the bartenders and the door people what they think is a good drink, etc. 

Well, one particular bartender was rather chatty, and at the end of the night, after all the fun and dancing, talking to fellow club people, Tilly (my friend going to Europe) and I saw the bartender (Dieter) we were talking to earlier. He had finished his shift and asked us to come over and have a chat.

The club was closing so we had to leave. We met some nice, overly friendly guys earlier and they invited us to come to the Crown Casino which was still open. The Dieter said he had nothing else to do, so he hung out with us.

We got sick of the immaturity of the younger guys and just sat down to talk to Dieter. He told us he was 24, done graphic design and is just bartending at the moment. We exchanged numbers and said we'll be friends and what not. Catch up maybe on the weekend.

That was that.

Then, we made plans to hang out on sunday afternoon/evening, but the friend I invited bailed and I was on my own.

One I caught up with him, I told him I wasn't interested and that I wanted to go home, I didn't want to stay out late or stay at his house.

We went out for a few drinks and dinner. It got later and later, every time I asked to leave, he kept making excuses for me to stay, saying things to make me feel bad so I would stay longer.

I ended up having to go back to his house. And insisted to sleep on the couch. 

I told him I'm going to bed.

He said, I just want to talk to you in my room. So I said, for 5 mins. 

We talked for a while, and then he kept saying "I like you, and I know your attracted to me. So stop denying it." 

After that, I knew I should probably try and get home.

He kept trying to kiss me, make me feel guilty for seeing him, telling me reasons why I should break up with my boyfriend, and telling me that I was why he hated catching up with girls. 

 He then told me his real age which was 30, and expected me to kiss him, and wanted to be with him, he kept touching me and trying to hold me, kissing down my back. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know how hw would react if I went off at him.

 I was freaking out, I couldn't stop shaking and I told him I needed a drink of water to get away from him. 

 I ran to get my stuff all together. I was going to get out of there, by then it was 3am. 

He followed me after a while, so I told him he was really scaring me.

 I got to the front door and went flying down the stairs out onto the street.

He was calling after me, telling me how stupid I was, and that I didn't need to act like that.

I kept walking, worried he was still following. I had no idea where I was, I called mum, and burst into tears of relief and fear.

I managed to flag down a taxi, and an hour and a half later I was home.

So, yeah. I'm now very cautious of men and not knowing people.

Stranger danger is 100% real my friends, take note. Never trust the seemingly nice men. 

"Going Up The Country"

This often occurs on my days off whilst listening to Kitty Daisy & Lewis.

I also LOVE MONICA!!!!! 

She has me thoroughly prepared for my climb to Everest, with all my lucky charms and pretty accessories.

(NOTE: I'll edit this post when I get home and take a proper photo of all my trinkets I received from Karen and Monica.) 

My shoes are officially off!

I have just had a beer, so I'm a little tipsy (all the better to put you to sleep my dear).

 This is traditional after a hard six hours or dish-pig labour! 

My new job over looking the beach isn't really all that awesome. I work in the back as well as the front. 

 Working for my money is hard, and painful. It's 10 minutes to 1 am, and thats early to be finished with work! 

Ok, enough complaining...

I LOVE KAREN!!!!!!!!!!

She gave me 2 awesome rings made out of guitar strings, 2 little stencil booklets, a hand drawn flower, and a mini dream catcher. CUTE!

Oh, and a beautifully written note, K you have amazing hand writing!

Now, I would put a picture up, but I'm currently not at home at the moment.

But the dream catcher is hanging from my roof! 

Oh, I also put more tre branches up, and a vinyl bird-cage print.

Ok, I need to sleep, writing a blog at 1 am is killing me.

You kiddies have a splendific day.

E.