My new house:

My Room.

I love where I'm currently situated. When I went through my major hippy phase I practically lived here.

So, now I'm home again. 

But, that is all settled.

I saw my little sister today and nearly cried. I miss my family so much, I hate fighting with them.

I was thinking a little, and talking to my friend Kelly, we both agree that my mother is completely stressed. Not just over me and my finishing up of 13 years of schooling.

But of all the up and down fighting with dad. She has booked a holiday to Paris next year for a surprise 50th birthday present, but she's trying to hide it from him and it isn't helping... financially. 

Well, that's all for this afternoon my friends.

Oh, Psychology exam went well today =]

Sitting in the sun in the sun room.

Charles(left) and Sam (right).

Sammy is the guy I'm chilling with for a few weeks.

The grass is always greener, you just need to know where to find it.

So, it's my first night away from the folks. 

And I was just sitting my the fire, listening to Angus and Julia Stone, Kimya Dawson and Band of Horses. Smoking strawberry flavoured tobacco with my new hooker pipe I received for my 18th birthday.

God, I couldn't ask for a better night with my two best friends. 

Ah, I'm so happily content at this moment.

I couldn't ask for a better evening...

A change of scenery:

The past two days have been an emotional blur for me.

Yesterday I started crying for no reason again. I think this might be due to the stress of exams. But it occurs all the time, so now I'm starting to think otherwise. 

Anyway, yesterday, I started crying again whilst I was studying, and mum saw me. I thought, "Oh crap! She's seen me crying!  I'll just say I needed a break, and it's starting to get to me again..." 

But then she went off at me, started yelling, telling me 'others are a lot worse off, I shouldn't have any excuses to cry for no reason'.

 Mum and Dad just really got on my case. I needed to get out. So I went for a walk, but I couldn't stop crying (I know I really sound pathetic at this point, but I'm just informing you of why I'm no longer at home), so I just sat outside till they left the house. Then I went to Ryans, and I was going to stay there the night. But as I was sleeping they called Ryans house, threatening to 'ground me until christmas', meaning they won't converse with me until then, and I'm not allowed to see my family in Sydney for Christmas (honestly, I thought they would come up with a better threat because I'm 18, but I guess it's the best they've got), this would happen if I didn't get home by 11pm.

So I went home, they didn't talk to me at all that night, then they tried to bully me into going to school again to study, but I told them I had other plans... public library.

But according to parentals, I was unter their thumb till the end of exams. 

So I packed up my things and said good bye.

So now I'm living at my best friend Sam's house. His mum and I get along really well, she's always been my adopted mother (metaphorically speaking), and his place is my home.

So yeah, that's where I am now.

So, I'm not all with it still, but I'm much happier. 

Thank you for listening to my whinging. 

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Santa has given me a budget to work with this Christmas.

 Yes, less than two months till the spoilt little children in my household get their undeserving gifts from a man, who wears an unfavourable costume and is contributing to the worlds obesity crisis. 

 My father, trying to dress as Santa. 

Anyway, this year, the four of us (I am one of six in my family), have been given an expense limit. And I think it is more than reasonable. 

$200

The problem I am having now is... 

What should I choose? 

Here are some ideas; 

- A cheap, play around acoustic guitar.

- New bedding (I like the sound of this one)

- New mobile phone.

- Gift voucher

- Ebay expenditure 

- 6 month supply of the best noodles in the world! Mi goreng, I don't actually know what is in them...

- Clothes.

- Put it towards a car...

Oh, the options are endless. 

x

Hahaha, I amuse myself so...

Ok, as I was typing my new follower a message (he likes poetry XD), I was sitting behind my little sisters acoustic guitar (I'm sadly attempting to teach myself how to play it, and I decided to learn 'Father and Son' by Cat Stevens).

But, as I was sitting behind it, I could see the reflection of me typing in it. So basically, it made me giggle.

 Yeah, thats all I've really got. 

Oh, yeah, I took a picture of it, just because I'm so amazing, and I can do that...

Rekindled heart;

Ryan and I have been together for nearly eight wonderful months. 

I love Ryan, I really do. We love the same music, we share the same thoughts, and no one I know (except for maybe my best friends Jade and Kelly) can predict what I'm about to do or say next. 

We connect and love each other for it. 

 But over the past few months, I have lost the 'lust' is our love a little. 

Ryan just became plain Ryan.

Say for instance looking at your Mum, and just seeing the same woman you have seen all your life. Yet when someone else looks at her, they see a beautifully matured woman that shares your characteristics. 

Well, it's a little like that. 

So, I came close to cheating on Ryan a little bit. 

In clubs, or parties. 

Probably not the nicest places to meet people. Usually shallow gatherings, where all you can really say to the other person is your name and age, and if your lucky, maybe a conversation. 

I tell Ryan everything. He knows about all this. 

But tonight, I could see him in every angle I used to see him in. 

Then I realized why I fell in love with him in the first place. So basically, I fell right back in love with again. 

Just thought I would get that off my chest before falling asleep next to him.

Thank you for listening to what is on my mind. 

Cause for celebration!

Elyse has a follower! Elyse has a follower! 

Thank you Sparklegreen =]  =]  

In light of this celebration I took some photos of my hands talking to one another. 

That is all.

Lia: "Hello. Why are you laughing at me? Since when was primary school a laughing matter?!"

John: "Because you always wore your shoes on the wrong

 feet. And look! You still do it to this day, you're such a goober Lia."