Once Every Blue Moon

Yes, it's been a long long, LONG time since I've even looked at

blogger, let alone write anything.

But I thought I'd give it a little up date.

So I've now been single for nearly a year, and that itself has been rewarding yet frustrating. I managed to try & pull myself away from everyone for a while, but in the past few months I've had to let my guard down and relax a little.

Which for me basically means I've decided to act like a 20 year old - for once!

I'm young, happy & single, what else is there to do - Beside

s the odd male - out there?

Well for starters I'm planning on going to America next year, yesterday I woke up feeling like I wanted to pierce my nose (so I did).

I also have developed a crush (can you call it a crush if your sleeping together?) on one guy but I'm still madly in love with my Army guy. It's so frustrating being stuck here, especially if your Army guy is in Afghanistan fighting & the other guy you like just got out of a 2.5 year relationship & wants to just have fun (but has recently informed me that he likes me, he's over sleeping with different people (like me), he also told me that out of everyone he knows he can connet/talk to me the easiest, but he's not ready for anything so we're going to be just friends, which I'm ok with because I like just being around him I get this amazing/happy/confident energy around him).

Oh yeah, my 3 best friends are all over 1000 km away from me too, so making new friends are in order. Talking over the internet can only get you so far! (I love you girls if your reading this).

Ok, I guess that was my update for now.

I'm off to Confest! Wish me luck!

http://www.dte.org.au/NextFest.html

xX

...Oh hey...

HEY!

I never got to show you what my apartment looked like!

Oh golly! I miss that humble dwelling ever so much! Next year if I'm working enough I might move back in.

I never had much of a problem with my old house mate, and now Ryan & I have split, I can abuse my single rights!

Oh, the silliness of me!

Hello, my name's Elyse... and I have a terrible habit of letting down my guard when (seemingly) nice boys with nice smiles and lots of cuddles say they like me...

In fact, I write them books and letters and cook them breakfast, cakes and everything else that I thought (seemingly) nice boys liked.

But then they stop talking to you, and forget your phone number.

Even if you have liked one another for 5 years.

They look amazing in their glasses and Country Road attire.

They smell amazing in their Joop.

They make you feel amazing when they kiss you & tell you "your perfect, happy, beautiful".

Then they go back and hide behind their guns in the Army.

They go to Afghanistan.

I secretly hope they never forget.

But, I know they eventually will.

Oh, the silliness of me!

Another wonderful day...

SO0OoOo0000oo0ooo000OOo0o!

It's been a while (again... I know, I'm fairly lazy).

Lovely to see how my whole 18 followers are doing. You seem to be rather wonderful...

So, life update; well, Ryan has now got a wonderful new girlfriend (it hurts, but I'm getting over it), I'm halfway through my course! It's gone so quickly! I've managed to stay in one of my jobs for more than 6 months :D

This yeah has had it's personal ups and downs, much like everybody else, you just pick up the pieces and keep on walking. There's really no time to stop and complain, the hours, days and weeks keep going, and naturally, you can't help but move forward with it.

cough cough

I cannot stop coughing, it's the most horrible feeling, like I'm unable to breath. My voice is now just a rough whisper and on my good days I'll sound like a man. Well, I'm glad I'm sick so I can appreciate the days when I'm healthy and well.

cough.

Mmm, traditional green tea infused with fragrant jasmine... not too weak yet not too strong.

My lovely bones...

Do know when you get that feeling? That horrible, lonely abandoned feeling where you're left feeling hollow and empty for a little while? Well I have that feeling, the best way I could possibly describe it is, like being an old, used hollow bone. The ones you find out in the bush somewhere. The type of bone you look at and think to yourself 'now, where is your home little one?'

I need to find where I belong.

YARR!

Ahoy there!

Ah! I'm so excited! I got into my course! Conservation and Land Management, this will provide a stepping stone for me to get into Environmental Science! So I can save and protect the important things in life with my new found wealth of knowledge! Huzzah!

In other news, I'm learning to sew and I've finally sent off Karrens pretend birthday present... give it a few weeks Karren.

xX

I'm recently employed as a children's swim teacher, and now I constantly smell like chlorine and i never know when i should wash my hair because I work nearly every night. So that's all for now. Thank you :]

Valentines Day

Is it just me or does St. Valentine's Day seem forced to you? Don't get me wrong, it's a wonderful excuse to celebrate a new and/or happy relationships. But what about the 'it's... ok/mutual closeness because I'm used to being around you all the time' relationships, these are the forced relationships that cause me to take a second look at this Hallmark excuse of a romantic day.

All the people that are single are already having a horrible day, to them Valentines day is just another excuse to be really pissed off at everyone else (like my poor, stunningly gorgeous and ridiculously fussy ex-house mate) and the couples who feel the pressure of Valentines Day and feel they need to walk side-by-side, wasting money on roses (what do flowers even symbolise anyway, they only die a week later), saying "I love you darling" to then break up a week later just frustrates me (alas, I am one of those people).

Maybe I'm being too cynical and dark, maybe it is a wonderful celebration of romance.

Actually I've decided I'm being bitter and twisted, people can celebrate today and whatever other day they want, however they want. I'm happy to read my book for the rest of the day.

Happy Valentines Day everyone!

Good lord, has it really been 5 months?

Ok, So I've been avoiding my blogging site for a while, only because I don't want to sound like I'm complaining the whole time.

So, update time:

- I've moved home (much to my dislike).

- I've lost a close relative recently and reacted quite odd to the whole situation, as if I were, well not indifferent but as if it were a normal occurrence, even though it is... but not in my everyday life.

- My head's not quite right after another very private personal issue I've had to endure.

- I constantly smell like Chlorine because I work nearly every night in a swimming pool teaching little kids to swim.

- I cut my hair off, so now it's short (as you will see from the picture of my friend jade and I).

- My photobooth accidentally got deleted from my mac and I can no longer take quick paranoid pictures of my teeth before I run off to a meeting or work... frustrating!

- Since moving home I forget to take the bins out.

- I like water from a tap, not chilled water (it makes my teeth hurt).

- I got a new phone, but it's hard to use.

So there you have it! The wonderful life of Elyse, up till now...

Tune in the next 5 months to read more!

xX

Book smell.

I don't know about you, but I just love the smell of an old book. There's something weathered and beautiful about them, like looking at yourself in an ancient distressed mirror.

Well, I'm currently sitting at my local library, with 22 minutes left of Internet use. It's fantastic! They even have a little cafe. Actually, it's a little impersonal, people are sitting right next to you, so they read everything you're writing and I seriously need to wash my hands after using this keyboard.

The reason I'm no longer able to use my laptop is because I've moved out with a friend, to this gorgeous apartment. I'll try and take some photos, just to show you how lucky I am!

We overlook the bay, as in the beach is literally a stones throw away.

Life has become a tad complex at the moment, I'm working two jobs, my main one is a little unstable, but that's apart of the excitement of living week to week. Do you have Target over in North America? Well, that where I'm currently employed, and it's pretty average, but it now officially pays the bills, and I'm getting better at budgeting, is that how you spell it? Budgeting? Gah, curse not having spell check! I miss my mac. I've probably made an absolute fool of myself with all my grammatical errors.

Well, I've now got only 15 minutes left and I have just a few more things to do whilst on this computer.

E

xx

Is it just me, or has Jamie T gone commercial? 

All my favourite bands are falling into their trap! Well, I still have Ash Grunwald and Xavier Rudd, hopefully they'll stay true. 

xX

Candles.

My light has blown, so, naturally I have employed a candle as my new source of light. It's really not very effective. But I feel oh so romantic sitting here alone in my bedroom, posting a blog and wearing an old jumper and socks. Now everyone must try my lovely atmospheric approach to lighting issues. 

Yesterday I went and saw a movie with my neighbour over the road. 

I was amazed at the story behind the film, but I was still utterly freaked out by it. For a PG movie, it really sends uncomfortable shivers up your spine. 

 Oh, in case you haven't guessed it yet, it's a new little fill in piece of Tim Burton's genius! 

Coraline, is a haunting tale of a young girls boring, tedious and unloving life with her hypocritical cold parents. She basically stumbles across a  tiny door that has been hidden behind the wall paper... there lies a world of a loving family and bright colourful land where her existence is a little more appreciated. 

 But then she starts to see the fine cracks. I personally wouldn't even dream of taking my kids to see that movie, I even got nightmares from it. But it was still beautifully done and it's refreshing from all that other disney crap thats on at the moment. 

So I give it 3.5 red wine corks, stars are too boring. 

xX

Spacer information please...

 

I'm trying to make this spacer (stretcher) in my right ear work. I just really need to go up a size.

The one I'm wearing now keeps getting tangled in my hair and catches on my clothes because its a spiral. 

So, I'll go hunting for a better one. 

Does anyone else like the Decemberists? 

I'm hungry, lunch time.

xx

 

P.s: Dont you just love the mirror effect! 

Lithium

"I'm so happy coz today I found my friends, their in my head." 

No, not really, but they were for Kurt.

 So I'm now waitressing, hanging out with my ex and listening to the greatest songs of all time.

Does anyone else love Bon Iver? 

Now, I'm thinking about changing my hair, and as you guys have some idea of who I am, you have the right to choose a hair style for me. You're welcome to choose anything, and I would love to hear what you have to say. 

 I'm going to bed now. 

Night! 

Lalala.

Ahhh, yes, the day has finally come. I can now walk around naked and feel no shame. 

Because I have the HOUSE TO MYSELF!! YAY YAY YAY YYAYAYAYYAYAYSYASFGAHEIVBNJ!!!

 Ok, I'm over it. 

Hey guess what!? My rabbits had babies. SO CUTE! 

Also, my friend is going into labour right NOW! How exciting! 

Thank you.

I'm sorry i've been truly pathetic with Blogging. 

I also really need to get into some of your blogs too, I'm really lazy at the moment. 

But I just wanted to say thank you to those who have read my dribble and still seemed to find some entertainment in it.

I'm sick at home (probably got the stupid Swine) and so now I hav to make Ryan a birthday present, I'm too poor to actually go and buy something.

So here is my plan for his birthday (22nd June). 

I'll make him a cake & do an artwork similar to Kate McLeod's work (god I love her stuff).

I'll also try to sew some little flags on a piece of string to decorate his house with, and write him a card.

Did I mention that I cannot sew to save my life? 

Wish me luck, i'll let you know if I've failed. 

Oh, also, for the past week I've been on placement at a Pathology Clinic, happily stabbing INR patients daily. God I love this work.

Ok, I might be a little Sadistic, but I do it with love.

Go and see Sunshine Cleaning. It's so cute.

.e

I love hippies.

I had the most wonderful, crazy, refreshing and eye opening experience last night.

 I was wonderful and refreshing because I have been so 'grown up' and 'mature' lately, that I actually forgot that I'm 18, and really, I shouldn't be trying to seem more stable so Ryan will stay with me. He should really be getting back to his roots and get out their, put himself in an uncomfortable situation to actually learn something from it. 

 Well, that's what I decided to do last night...

My friend Elliot (whom I haven't seen in quite some time due to his worldly adventures) has decided to go backpacking/hitch hiking across Australia. 

But since he's been back from Pakistan or where ever he was last, his current address since then is... house squatting in an abandoned building. This building used to be an old Jail/police station. But some asian corporate company has bought it since then, and they plan to knock it down some time next year to rebuild an apartment block.

So anyway, we went there as a farewell to Elliot and to paint the walls. 

 People were being held up-side-down so they'll be able to walk on the roof with paint on their feet. 

 So, I knew absolutely no one there, I took one friend with me, Sarah. She's the only person that's really open to anything, she doesn't care what people think of her. All she wants to do is enjoy life whilst she still has it.

 So, after getting to know some of the others, we all headed into the old Jail cell to sit down play the guitar and chat, one girl said she found an old Court Room, so we all decided to pack up and head to this place. 

It was massive! Some of us split up to go exploring, we went to the back rooms to look around. All of a sudden someone came running in saying, "Get out! Security guards are outside, there calling the cops! Run!"

We all ditched in different hallways, but there were no back doors, everyone managed to find a back window to jump out of, but I was in another room so I jumped out the window there, but managed to graze my entire back in the process. 

We were hiding out side for ages, waiting to hear what happened. 

 I found one of the guys, and he said that they're gone.

So we all went back to the original police station. But they hadn't left, they found the building we were in.

So we all hid in different areas or the premises, seeing torch lights through the windows and radios going off about different locations.  

Sarah and I had to get out of there! I don't know what they could have charged us with, but I couldn't risk it. I needed to get into nursing with a clean record. 

We found 3 other people near where we lived, so we found a way out, got into their Kombi van. Sarah and I were in the mattress in the back, whilst the others drove. 

As we were on the main road, a fuzz copter started to follow us, to be honest I have absolutely no idea why, but we had to lose them, so we went under a bridge, and turned around to find another way back.

We arrived at one of the guys houses, changed cars, so we wouldn't be picked up again, and went home safely. 

I have really missed being my age. 

Please, don't feel you need to read this, I just needed to vent.

I guess I haven't really written here for a while because I feel that what I say is boring. I really have nothing exciting to discuss. 

 But I think I need to start up again, because I'm starting to feel down again. I started this blog when I was doing my final year/few months of high school, and I was under a lot of pressure. 

So anyway, this is my self advised therapy. 

The reason I think I'm not myself, is because I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. I have no money/job anymore, so I can't travel or save for a car. 

I have no other companions other than Ryan at the moment, No friends to really share anything with. 

Now I feel really self centred for taking your time. This was a redundant post. I just needed to vent, sorry to make you feel like I now do. 

.e