Once Every Blue Moon

Yes, it's been a long long, LONG time since I've even looked at

blogger, let alone write anything.

But I thought I'd give it a little up date.

So I've now been single for nearly a year, and that itself has been rewarding yet frustrating. I managed to try & pull myself away from everyone for a while, but in the past few months I've had to let my guard down and relax a little.

Which for me basically means I've decided to act like a 20 year old - for once!

I'm young, happy & single, what else is there to do - Beside

s the odd male - out there?

Well for starters I'm planning on going to America next year, yesterday I woke up feeling like I wanted to pierce my nose (so I did).

I also have developed a crush (can you call it a crush if your sleeping together?) on one guy but I'm still madly in love with my Army guy. It's so frustrating being stuck here, especially if your Army guy is in Afghanistan fighting & the other guy you like just got out of a 2.5 year relationship & wants to just have fun (but has recently informed me that he likes me, he's over sleeping with different people (like me), he also told me that out of everyone he knows he can connet/talk to me the easiest, but he's not ready for anything so we're going to be just friends, which I'm ok with because I like just being around him I get this amazing/happy/confident energy around him).

Oh yeah, my 3 best friends are all over 1000 km away from me too, so making new friends are in order. Talking over the internet can only get you so far! (I love you girls if your reading this).

Ok, I guess that was my update for now.

I'm off to Confest! Wish me luck!

http://www.dte.org.au/NextFest.html

xX

...Oh hey...

HEY!

I never got to show you what my apartment looked like!

Oh golly! I miss that humble dwelling ever so much! Next year if I'm working enough I might move back in.

I never had much of a problem with my old house mate, and now Ryan & I have split, I can abuse my single rights!

Oh, the silliness of me!

Hello, my name's Elyse... and I have a terrible habit of letting down my guard when (seemingly) nice boys with nice smiles and lots of cuddles say they like me...

In fact, I write them books and letters and cook them breakfast, cakes and everything else that I thought (seemingly) nice boys liked.

But then they stop talking to you, and forget your phone number.

Even if you have liked one another for 5 years.

They look amazing in their glasses and Country Road attire.

They smell amazing in their Joop.

They make you feel amazing when they kiss you & tell you "your perfect, happy, beautiful".

Then they go back and hide behind their guns in the Army.

They go to Afghanistan.

I secretly hope they never forget.

But, I know they eventually will.

Oh, the silliness of me!

Another wonderful day...

SO0OoOo0000oo0ooo000OOo0o!

It's been a while (again... I know, I'm fairly lazy).

Lovely to see how my whole 18 followers are doing. You seem to be rather wonderful...

So, life update; well, Ryan has now got a wonderful new girlfriend (it hurts, but I'm getting over it), I'm halfway through my course! It's gone so quickly! I've managed to stay in one of my jobs for more than 6 months :D

This yeah has had it's personal ups and downs, much like everybody else, you just pick up the pieces and keep on walking. There's really no time to stop and complain, the hours, days and weeks keep going, and naturally, you can't help but move forward with it.

cough cough

I cannot stop coughing, it's the most horrible feeling, like I'm unable to breath. My voice is now just a rough whisper and on my good days I'll sound like a man. Well, I'm glad I'm sick so I can appreciate the days when I'm healthy and well.

cough.

Mmm, traditional green tea infused with fragrant jasmine... not too weak yet not too strong.

My lovely bones...

Do know when you get that feeling? That horrible, lonely abandoned feeling where you're left feeling hollow and empty for a little while? Well I have that feeling, the best way I could possibly describe it is, like being an old, used hollow bone. The ones you find out in the bush somewhere. The type of bone you look at and think to yourself 'now, where is your home little one?'

I need to find where I belong.